Sometimes you take me by surprise when we’re with people
Many times I try to hide you and keep you to myself
It gets difficult when you are so near
I feel your presence as it takes over me
My senses heighten
I want you gone
Yet
I only want you close to me
When you leave me I don’t know what to do
My face turns red
I get embarrassed when we’re apart
I try
And I try
And I try
But none the less
You leave me
I get afraid that you’ll slip between the cracks
I fear the day where I don’t realize it happens
I think about you as I keep you close
I feel us ripping apart
I hold on tight
Clenching
Fighting
You slip away
Slowly
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In the air
Your scent lingering by
I wait
I look
I take a sniff to check if you’re still there
The faces of others changing
Their noses lifting
My embarrassment takes over
As conversations begin
“Do you smell that?”
Someone asks
“What in the ever loving shit?”
Another comments
I start to stand as I think of leaving you behind
I walk by a woman and notice her face
I’m not worried about you
You’ll be with another soon